experiments in dieting and other random thoughts

I'm thinking I don't like the green on this blog.

And if I ever get enough sleep I just might get the energy to do something about it.

I am actually less tired than usual right now thanks to my new diet pills. Phentermine. My new diet strategy involves big bucks. I actually went to a diet center and talked to a nurse to get enrolled in this so it better work.

Of course, with any diet, it involves an exercise and diet change. You can't just take the pills and watch the pounds fall off. I know, I already asked.

But hopefully, this will help me get slim enough to run without getting shin splints. Then there is no stopping me.

Anyway, what I'm telling you internet is my energy level is up. And I don't like the green anymore.

Rambling on. Things are changing for me. By this time next year, who knows where I'll be. I am looking for a new job. My husband, too. Which ultimately means a new city. I would love to stay where I'm at but there isn't alot here in the way of the type of employment I'm seeking.

Sigh.

So, the realtor comes by the house today to let me know how much it may be worth. I was disappointed his number was less than my number. I told him to list for my number anyway and if nothing bites in a year or so, then I will come down.

Well, I am having the beginnings of a headache, I think from the Diet Mountain Dew. I drank a few too many today combined with the red bull.

Sheesh, this blog is really boring today, isn't it?

So cute, my sons both fell asleep on my lap today. That was a first. I felt so warm and lucky to have such cute babies and precious moments. My sons are the best.

Now, it's time for bed

Convo w/mom

I had this funny conversation w/my mom while helping her check her e-mail. haha. old people. Enough preface! Enjoy!

Mom: Where's your @ sign?
Me: Same place it is on your computer
Mom: No, it's not.

The Princess and the Frog

Me and Ian have watched The Princess and The Frog about a thousand times. I think I know the entire musical score by now.

If I were a human being
I'd head straight to New Orleans

See?

I have so much to say but Ian really wants my attention right now. He is being really clingy lately.

The hand that rules the world!

Psycho? Well, of course.

And to serve that single issue, lest the generations fail,
The female of the species must be deadlier than the male.

I was thinking of how women get such flak for being psycho, emotional, crazy, dramatic, etc. Doesn't it seem like those types of women also get more male attention than the nice ones? It's true. I didn't snap my man until I started crazying it up a bit. But I digress.

I wanted to blog tonite on my personal opinion that, yes, all women are psycho. It's just to different degrees. And some of us hide it better than others. But there's a good reason for it.

Humans are kind of pitiable in the speed and size department, when compared to other predators. Also, physically women are the weaker sex. So, what other instrument do we have to protect our young but by turning the crazy meter in our big brains all the way up. I think over time the crazy women were actually naturally selected for b/c they were better able to see their young into adulthood. And eventually the meek ones just died out.

But, you say, there are still meek females today. To which I say, they are usually the most crazy and that's why we have the expression, 'it's always the quiet ones.'

I began with an excerpt from a poem by Rudyard Kipling. Rudyard, man, that guy gets it. You should check out the poem.

And take it easy on the crazy women. They can't help it. There is some primal contraption in their brain that makes them that way.

is this really ruling the world?

Is the hand that rocks the cradle the hand that rules the world or do we just tell ourselves that so we don't feel like losers?

Moms quit so much to be moms. They quit jobs, schools, dreams.

But we get so much in return. Baby gazes....And everybody always gets those mom tattoos, for instance. And who does everyone say 'hi' to when they get before a camera?

But what about Hitler's mom? What was her deal? She must have really done something wrong.

I think the subject matter warrants more research...Next book idea...

Voyeurism

Just got done watching 'The City'. That's a new one. I just began watching it but now I'm hooked. At least these girls work. My hubby is always criticizing my choices of viewing material and claiming I only watch stupid people doing stupid things and I'm getting stupider by watching it. (Sorry Speidi, but I stood up for you! I just can't remember how or what I said exactly(oh, no! Mayber I am getting stupider (gasp! I meant more stupid!))) Anyway, he only watches History and the Discovery Channel. And if he does come down to the level of us common folk, it will only be to watch a program like House. Pfght. House has nothing on Grey's. At least the first few season. Then I stopped watching it. I am more of a reality TV person. I guess that's b/c voyeurism is my hobby. In the sense of reality TV and blogs being what I enjoy.

Anyway, before I forget, I love the soundtrack to the city. Let me share some of the lyrics I fall in love with here...If you care to, google it and then find them on Itunes and hear the whole song.

I got something better for my girls who know they're clever (from a boardroom scene)(just sort of talked in a bratty rap voice)
I'm moving to Manhattan and I'm never looking back (from a nighttime aerial of the City)(really energetic and shouted practically)

It doesn't translate well w/out the audio.

It is getting late here. I need some rest b/c the boys will be up early with or without me. It will be better on the house (maybe even on the universe) if it is with me.

Alone with my kids

My son is rolling around & being silly on the bed by me as I type this. I tickle him when he gets into arms reach.

tickle time

I maybe overdid it that last time. He almost fell off the bed. Oh, here he comes.

tickle time

Oh, now he is kicking my computer. Time to give that a rest.

Almost time to feed my youngest. After one more rendition Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star.

My blog is titled as such b/c I have so many profound thoughts on various subjects and no adult to share them with.

I mostly tell them to the windshield as I drive home from work. I am going to try to spend more quality time with my kids. I want to do more family stuff on the weekends.

Not much of a sampling of profound thoughts so far, is it? Well, I'm getting there. I was thinking of some other couples I know and their marital problems with cheating. With men, it seems like they cheat and it is mostly for the physical aspect only. But women, when they do that, for revenge mostly, they only do it when they fall in love with someone else to get the maximum hurtful effect on the other partner. I should name this syndrome before some sociologist beats me to it. I call it the Drive Home Syndrome. That's b/c I thought of it while driving home. And also b/c the women are really trying to drive their point home when they do it.

Revenge is a dish best served cold.

New Blog in Town

I guess I am the New Blog in Town. I hope you like my name. I want everyone to know that, for legal and employment purposes, I am not really on the brink of insanity (wink, wink).

How fun. My old blog was on livejournal but I got writer's block on it. I was confining myself to a few subject. Now that I'm over here on blogspot, I'm just gonna let it all hang out.

I had been following a few blogs over here for awhile and finally decided to jump in the fray and show off my moves. I have a few. But I think I will blog mostly about my motherhood experiences on here and pepper it with a few my-hubby's-an-asshole posts. I have one son asleep with his head on my leg right now and the other fell asleep in his room watching Kung Fu Panda. That's how I have all this free time to write 3 paragraphs.

I usually don't joke about my hubby being an asshole in public forums b/c he gets so bent out of shape about that but lately he has really been an asshole so he has it coming. Yeah, take that. This is what he does lately when we fight. He goes quiet and just says uh-huh, okay, yeah. Ohhhh! Honey, so since you are aggravating the shit out of me by not answering anything I say, you must be the bigger person by not getting dragged into an argument. Oh, I just go all the way crazy when he starts that up. He is sabotaging the conversation to turn me bat-shit, but he gets to look all innocent. Sometimes, not arguing with someone IS the biggest button to push.

Sigh. Well, glad Igot that out.

Now, back to the subject that brought us all here togethor. My kids.

I love them, but let me tell ya, motherhood is THE most challenging thing I have ever tried to accomplish IN MY LIFE.

I think it is particularly challenging b/c...
1. I have 2 boys, but had no prior experience w/boys since I have 3 sister and mostly nieces in my family.
2. My husband is gone all the time for work and I am doing most of this on my own.
3. My oldest son, sadly, regrettably, unfortunately, don't-make-fun-or-I'll-kick-your-ass, has recently been diagnosed w/autism.

It's hard for me to share that. That breaks my heart. He is not so bad that he will be behind in school, they say, but I am playing wait-and-see to find out how he does with the ABA therapy. I believe in him, I see him in there, he comes through sometimes clear as a bell. Then other times he is breaking things or hitting me or silent and doing the 1000 yard stare.

Well, he stirs, he stirs, to quote a Navajo waking song and referring to my youngest. I close here.