Oh. Shut. Up.

Autism blogs where have you been all my life? That's what I thought when I first stumbled into one. But I am let down. It's just a bunch of annoying twerps with high functioning kids who see nothing but silver linings. Of course they do. Their kids friggin talk for one thing. What do they have to be concerned about. Shame on them for calling themselves an autism blog when they are barely on the spectrum and have no idea, by what they write, the terrible see-saw of hope and disappointment that most special parents go through.

It goes like this. Maybe today, maybe today I will reach him. If not today, maybe he'll be ready for kindergarten. Not there yet? Maybe when he's 6 or 7. Maybe when he's 10. Maybe. And those milestones you wait for never come and you wonder if you'll grow old still thinking maybe today, maybe today.

Now here is something helpful, I heard about something called a special needs trust. That is something I need to learn about. I have been worried about my death. I dodn't know what resources were out there. I think I will look into that.

Is this really me?

I was just cruising through my old posts. I kind of think there is a disconnect between who I am to people who know me and what I blog about. My blogs are not filtered so there is a lot more frustration vented here. I really don't see the real me in my blogs.

Why do I do that? Hide me from me? Isn't blogging about being yourself?

I guess I just have to start blogging when I'm in a better mood or on a topic that I'm not erratic about.

For the love of it

Well, it's been about a year but I am finally running again but this time it's different. I'm not running bc I'm forced, I'm back to running for the love of it....and it feels pretty good. Just approaching running with a good frame of mind makes an incredible differance than when I used to face it with dread and coercion. So, happy day, I found my way back to running for the love of it.

Besides that, I was mentioning to a friend how so-and-so has a blog but it's vapid and dull. He said my blog's not like that. I jump in with, 'I know! I am the Quentin Tarantino of the mommy bloggers!'

Like I said...

Like I said, the IPAD sucks for making corrections, so pardon the errors in these posts!

What I'm Doin' These Days

Soooo, I moved out of my grand dream house, just like Julia Roberts in 'Eat, Pray, Love', in exchange for an apartment so I could work on my doctorate. That's where I left you at, blog. But so much has happned since then and not good stuff either. Basically, practically everyone who is dear to me wound up in the hospital, in wheelchairs, friggin' blind, you name it. I missed so much class in the first semester that I had to withdraw and I moved back home for family support. The good news is, PTL, everyone has pretty much been healed. The downside is I'm a year behind where I thought I'd be at this point.

IPAD problems

Thanks go to the kids for busting my laptop. I'm now doing these entries via IPAD, which makes my half-butt editing jobs even worse. And this cursor! Curse it! It will never do what I want it to.

I'm baaaaaa-aaack

So, I looked up a few people from my past on FB and found that one of them had a blog on here. After reading through it, I thought my blog was much better. Sure, I don't do anything with pictures but I have real meat and bones over here in my words. Theirs was just...vapid and dull. Like a sorority girl's scrapbook. Maybe that's what they were going for, though.