Well, where should I start?

I haven't blogged in awhile. Because I had nothing good to say. Then I decided this might be the perfect time to blog.

The most startling disruption to my life recently is I am now getting a divorce. There are a lot of reasons why but I can't put all my focus into splitting hairs and examining the past when I have to keep my head in the game. Becauuuussseee, startling disruption #2, I have to move back to my hometown.

Sigh.

It's not such a bad place, it's just I really like living on the coast but everybody who can help me out with baby sitting and shuttling the kids home from school live farther inland. The housing is also cheaper and the job market is better. So, it's a decision that kinda made itself. Plus, I feel like a whipped puppy running home with my tail tucked between my legs. It's not a recourse I came to automatically and without misgivings--moving home, that is.

And third, I had a complete overhaul. Some people call them mommy make-overs. I had lost a lot of weight (over 100lbs) since pregnant with my last son. So, I got a little nip and tuck to smooth everything out. Plus some fake boobs and lipo. Now, that is major sugery, it's funny that such a huge thing like completely changing my image is the 3rd biggest disruption in my life recently.

So, I have been vocalizing the inequity of who pays for what with my (what should I call him?) less significant other, lately. I had been paying for way more in the way of clothes and toys. But now, I insist he buy that stuff, too. He had the nerve to say I was just trying to use him for money. I retort, I have fake tits, I can get some schmuck to give me money and pay my bills 7 days a week, this is about responsibility. More or less that's what I say, I'm frustrated and angry when I actually say it so it comes off a little less polished.