Well, today is the day I move out of my house. This was my dream house when I moved in, I thought it would be the last place I ever lived. But instead it became my prison...partly b/c of the remoteness of it and partly for other reasons. These last few months have really been rough between me and the hubby. So, although I am moving out into a smaller apartment, I am excited about the future and finally feel like a free human being again--like my life is my own. I have lived so long without being able to make my own decisions about where I'll live that I feel... unshackled is the word that comes to mind.
That is pretty big news, but I also wanted to write about how the 4th of July went. The most magical moment was watching Ian's face as he watched the fireworks. He had an enthralled half-smile and I could see the reflection of the fireworks in his eyes. It was really a beautiful moment, watching the fireworks in Ian's eyes. Riley, was entranced as well, judging my his pointing and bouncing but my husband had a hold of him so I didn't get to see the close-up of his expressions.
What's next? I am off to work on another degree so I can be employed in a field I actually have an interest in. The future is bright.
I have been facebooking it up lately, contacting people I haven't seen in years. I used to only use facebook to spy on my nieces and talk to people I actually talked to on a regular basis. Now, I see the value in having a page just to connect with other people like extended family and old friends.
I think another thing that left me cold with facebook was all the has-beens from my high school who were on there, so whenever I would log on I had a page full of bad grammar slang and binge-drinking-party updates--and these are 30-somethings.
I felt guilty about de-friending anyone but these were all people I haven't spoken to in years and barely knew in the first place. Plus, they were really making my facebook page a crappy place to hang out. So, I de-friended alot of them. If anyone notices, the excuse I'll give is that I was job searching and only wanted professional contacts and family on my page (which is true in part) in case anyone wanted to look into it, they would see what a straight arrow I was. But all that just to say this, I don't want people who can't spell or construct sentences to leave their moronic ramblings on my page! My facebook page is a classy place.
